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Hey, finally posting again.
Today, I'm gonna summarise how much of a douche I've been.
1. I betrayed 2 of my very good friends. Friends that I wouldnt mind putting down my life for. Friends that have been with me when I was feeling down, when I had no one to talk to. I already promised them that we would go out, and I just had to break that promise (in a manner of speaking) because I didnt call to make sure that they had other plans. It was my fault, and they have every right to be angry with me. But, I pray hard that, even though I am such a bloody idiot, that they won't leave me. Without them, I dont think I can hold on any longer. I think I'm running out of time. And I dont want that time to be wasted on things that I regret, things that even idiots know that they shouldnt be doing.
2. I was insensitive to another friend. Telling the world something I ASSUMED was okay. He didnt like it. Maybe even hated it. Yet I still said it. My heart fell when I found out he was pissed. He was like a bro to me, and I just had to be, once again, a bloody idiot.

My life's messed up because of my own mistakes. It ain't anyone's fault. I screw my own life up. I try to make up. Even now, school's a nightmare. I'm someone who overthinks. I get really upset when others are angry at me. My heart's in a lot of pain right now, and I dont know what to do. I'm trying to be strong, but sometimes, I wonder if I am really that strong at all. I dont wanna be emo, I dont wanna cut myself. I'm deemed suicidal, but I know that life is important.

I really dont know what to do.

Being alone is really painful.



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♥Thursday, March 15, 2012